The Anatomy of Hatred turned to Love

I know about love. Love, the word with the big letter L, the one thing people spread around like a fucking stop-word and yet seem so hesitant to declare. Love, the drug, the passion, the fire, the feeling down there when you’re all getting hot and you feel it’s wet and sweaty and open, open like Sesame’s Cave… Love, I know love. But you don’t.

I have felt a man’s body move upon me, seen the animal that’s in our genes but not in our beliefs. I have observed the adoration a man can show for a woman, how he can feed her ego while she feeds his lust. Relational Commensalism. I know about it.

But have you ever felt the passion burn so hard that it hurt you, like a knife was cutting you open from the inside out, leaving you in a pool of blood, skinned alive, your intestines knotted up, feeling like you’re choking in your own body fluids? A pain so bone-chilling, spine-tingling, freaking blood-curdling you thought you would die while begging for more?

There is no vehemence, no more excruciating avidity than hatred turned to love. Ravishing, sadistic, obsessive, compulsive. Hatred turned to love.


About quantumphysica

My name is QuantumPhysica The Insane, but you can call me QP. I am insane, admitted to a mental hospital in Belgium, and waiting for a decent diagnosis at the moment. Once I was a physics student with goals in life and what more; now I'm simply the patient of Room 93. Ever wondered what life is like in the psychiatric ward? I'll tell you everything you ever wanted to know... I am... particularly twitchy of personality. But I also am genuinely interested in everything. There is nothing that doesn't interest me, really. Everything, from quantum computers to fashion and cars to traveling... I also give advice. On anything. No taboos whatsoever. And I make lists of things...
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5 Responses to The Anatomy of Hatred turned to Love

  1. headsink says:

    Love made me lost, but it inspires.

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