Tag Archives: depression

Pre-Birthday Melancholia

My last good birthday was when I turned 17. I felt like I was on top of the world, at the doorstep of adulthood; everything was bright and amazing and full of possibilities. I had a party and a big cake and friends … Continue reading

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Gratitude, Oaths, And The Uses Of Doom

I want to thank everyone who commented on my previous post about how I struggled with daydreaming and staying coherent enough to study. I didn’t answer any of your messages at the time, but your advice and support wasn’t lost on me. … Continue reading

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Please Help. Please.

I am very proud of myself for keeping my urge to cut under tight control. I haven’t self-harmed in a long time. However, right now I have the feeling that one of my most-used coping mechanisms is getting out of hand. Severely. … Continue reading

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Helpful Advice?

Mental illness is just as real as any other disease. 

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Doubts… An Inquiry Into My Relationship With Experiment No.7

I don’t know how to write about this, yet I feel I have to. This is a call for advice to people more experienced than me. I don’t know what to do anymore. I’m having relationship doubts. When I met Experiment … Continue reading

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Fire And Ice

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We Lesser Beings… Thoughts On Physics And Grief

Shit has a funny way of creeping back up on you just when you think you’re done with it…  I thought I had accepted my failures. I thought I had gone crazy, recovered to a certain extent, mourned lost chances, and … Continue reading

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My “Best Me”? Or My Worst?

How is that my “best me” seems to come out only when I’m falling apart? I have panic attacks now, daily. The kind that has you hiding in your closet or breathing in a plastic bag. I haven’t slept a … Continue reading

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The Facebook Syndrome, Or Why I Haven’t Been Blogging Much Lately

I suffer from the Facebook Syndrome. As in, I’ve gotten infected with the “I want to present my life as a glorious, gorgeous and enviable commodity” disease that runs rampant on FB. Given that my life currently isn’t any of the … Continue reading

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A Writer’s Lament…

I hesitate to call myself a writer, because the only things I write are poetry and fanfic. And poetry -especially my poetry- doesn’t really count, in my opinion. Yet I can’t deny that I write, and that this writing is an … Continue reading

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