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Pre-Birthday Melancholia

My last good birthday was when I turned 17. I felt like I was on top of the world, at the doorstep of adulthood; everything was bright and amazing and full of possibilities. I had a party and a big cake and friends … Continue reading

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Misery Business…

I hate my period. No, hate is not strong enough a word. I loathe it. I abhor it. I detest it. My period is a monthly recurring onslaught of general mental instability, insomnia, paranoia, panic attacks and irrational anger. Not to … Continue reading

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Amusement…

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Please Help. Please.

I am very proud of myself for keeping my urge to cut under tight control. I haven’t self-harmed in a long time. However, right now I have the feeling that one of my most-used coping mechanisms is getting out of hand. Severely. … Continue reading

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Sick And Tired

I think this time I am actually, physically sick. But it might also be aggravated stress due to being badly prepared for my retake exams (which start this saturday). In any case, I’m a mess. My eyes are all bloodshot, … Continue reading

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A Memory Of Insecurity

Lately I’ve been having “feminist” conversations with people, mostly on the topic of street harassment. Discussing that brought back an old memory… and despite it being not my proudest moment, I felt I had to share it here. … Let’s … Continue reading

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Fire And Ice

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Musings On Object And Subject In Murder

Here I am again, talking about one of my favorite subjects: murder! To me, there are two states of mind in which one can commit the act of murder. I’m not talking about emotion or motivation here, merely the state of … Continue reading

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We Lesser Beings… Thoughts On Physics And Grief

Shit has a funny way of creeping back up on you just when you think you’re done with it…  I thought I had accepted my failures. I thought I had gone crazy, recovered to a certain extent, mourned lost chances, and … Continue reading

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All Shapes And Sizes…

There is beauty in variety.

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