Tag Archives: suffering

Please Help. Please.

I am very proud of myself for keeping my urge to cut under tight control. I haven’t self-harmed in a long time. However, right now I have the feeling that one of my most-used coping mechanisms is getting out of hand. Severely. … Continue reading

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Fire And Ice

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We Lesser Beings… Thoughts On Physics And Grief

Shit has a funny way of creeping back up on you just when you think you’re done with it…  I thought I had accepted my failures. I thought I had gone crazy, recovered to a certain extent, mourned lost chances, and … Continue reading

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Accountancy…

“… I spend my time open-handedly, hoping that I’ll soon have no more seconds left to pay the rent of this mortal body…”

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Trapped…

I am trapped, a lost soul. The cold is in my veins. There is no answer in the void.

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Ups And Downs

There are days that it’s okay. Days that I’m okay, that I can concentrate, that I feel alive and present in both mind and body. Days that I don’t curse the universe for letting me open my eyes. It’s those … Continue reading

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Blunt Truth, Brought To You By Philip Larkin

This Be The Verse They fuck you up, your mom and dad. They may not mean to, but they do. They fill you with the faults they had And add some extra, just for you. But they were fucked up … Continue reading

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Mental Illness Is Everywhere

I had this classmate in high school. She was the hot artsy chick, the type that doesn’t only have a Pinterest page full of cool ideas, but actually tries them out. She had cute nail art, a Leica camera, and … Continue reading

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Memento Mori… Or, The Importance Of Thinking On Death

Lately I read an article in my local paper about how a butcher’s display window had started to garner protest, as the villagers found the hanging carcasses and skinned animals in it distasteful. I didn’t know if I had to … Continue reading

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The Gods Have No Mercy…

“The Gods have no mercy. That’s why they’re Gods.” – Cersei Lannister Am I a horrible, selfish, thankless person for wishing death upon myself? Probably. I wish for car accidents, cancer, building site accidents, lightning strikes, accidental asphyxiation on a piece … Continue reading

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