Tag Archives: stress

Sick And Tired

I think this time I am actually, physically sick. But it might also be aggravated stress due to being badly prepared for my retake exams (which start this saturday). In any case, I’m a mess. My eyes are all bloodshot, … Continue reading

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We Lesser Beings… Thoughts On Physics And Grief

Shit has a funny way of creeping back up on you just when you think you’re done with it…  I thought I had accepted my failures. I thought I had gone crazy, recovered to a certain extent, mourned lost chances, and … Continue reading

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My “Best Me”? Or My Worst?

How is that my “best me” seems to come out only when I’m falling apart? I have panic attacks now, daily. The kind that has you hiding in your closet or breathing in a plastic bag. I haven’t slept a … Continue reading

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Who Cares If I Didn’t Do It?

So there is something going on in my family. I don’t know what it is, I just know that something is seriously wrong. I noticed it right when I came downstairs for dinner; every fork scraping a plate sounded like … Continue reading

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Travel Stress And A Sense Of Foreboding

I’m leaving for Florence tomorrow, early morning. I bought new clothes and makeup, I got books from the library, I have my paperwork and everything in order, the flight and hotel have been arranged… and I’m terrified. I have wanted … Continue reading

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Paranoia, Spiders, And Results On Sunday

Here I am again. I’m not in a good place at the moment, although I’m trying my very best to hide that. My results are coming in this Sunday, and with every passing minute I feel more as if I’m … Continue reading

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Too Lengthy And Not Glorious At All

You read the title. That’s my verdict so far on battle with a Glorious Purpose. I haven’t slept for two days now. That’s 48 hours of no sleep at all, more or less. And the worst part is… I haven’t … Continue reading

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Glorious Purpose, Part II

I have this feeling I’m annoying all my followers on Twitter with the #GloriousPurpose hashtag, but I just can’t help it. No better description of my ordeal is possible. It’s a lot of big talk (err… oral exams, I mean), … Continue reading

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The Importance Of Glorious Purpose

So. I want to say thanks to all the people who sent me support during my bouts of exam-induced depression. Tomorrow is my first exam, and yes I have studied, and no I haven’t studied as much as I should … Continue reading

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I’m Not Going To Make It.

I’m not going to make it. I don’t work, I waste my time, I haven’t studied any of my subjects properly, I’m going down without a fight. Coward’s death for a coward of the truest type. I want to die. … Continue reading

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