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Ups And Downs
There are days that it’s okay. Days that I’m okay, that I can concentrate, that I feel alive and present in both mind and body. Days that I don’t curse the universe for letting me open my eyes. It’s those … Continue reading
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Tagged awkward, crazy, depression, despair, exhaustion, good day, help, hope, insane, insanity, loneliness, mad, madness, mental, mental illness, mental pain, mental patient, mood swings, pain, painful, psychiatry, psychology, psychosis, psychotic, sadness, schizophrenia, self harm, sick, suffering, suicide, ups and downs, weird
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Blood, An Almost-Victim, An Aching Need… My Night So Far
I hate my period. Period. Everything’s just worse then. Apparently bleeding from my intimate orifices makes me lust for blood even more than usual, so much more that I might do stupid things. I almost put an ad on a … Continue reading
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Tagged awkward, BDSM, bizarre, crazy, cutting, depression, desire, headache, help, insane, insanity, insomnia, knife play, lunatic, mad, madness, menstruation, mental, mental illness, mental patient, murder, need, needing help, Normal Life, pain, pain play, parental trouble, period, psychiatrist, psychiatry, psychology, psychosis, qp, sadness, schizoid, schizophrenia, self harm, sex, sick, strange, style, trigger, unorthodox urges, weird
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Bugs, Bacteria, and Secret Self Harm…
So… back in the days of acute psychosis I used to cut myself with anything sharp enough to penetrate my skin. And when they took all my sharp objects I scratched. And when they cut my nails I bit myself. … Continue reading
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Tagged acute psychosis, awkward, bizarre, crazy, cutting, depression, health, insane, insanity, love of pain, lunatic, mad, madness, mental, mental illness, mental patient, pain, painful, psychiatrist, psychiatry, psychology, psychosis, sadness, schizoid, schizophrenia, self harm, sick, strange, streptococcus infection, suicide, weird
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Survival…
Why?
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Tagged awkward, depression, desire, fear, help, insane, insanity, kill, lunacy, mad, madness, pain, painful, psychiatrist, psychiatry, sadness, schizoid, schizophrenia, self harm, suicidal, suicide, unhappy
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Happiness…
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Tagged depressed, depression, giving up, happiness, insane, insanity, lunatic, mad, madness, mental, mental illness, mental pain, mental patient, pain, painful, psychiatrist, psychiatry, psychology, psychosis, quitter, quitting, regret, sadness, self harm, sick, strange, suffering, suicidal, suicide, unhappy, wordboner
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Musings over a knife
Yesterday at the IKEA I was completely taken aback by the variety of cook’s knives available… I felt aroused. I couldn’t top thinking about what it must be like to let them touch a human body. Teasingly at first, tracing … Continue reading
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Tagged arousal, bizarre, chemistry, confusion, crazy, cut, cutting, desire, insane, insanity, killing, knife, knives, love, lunatic, mad, madness, mental, mental illness, mental patient, murder, pain, painful, psychiatrist, psychiatry, psychology, psychosis, sadism, sadist, sadness, self harm, sick, stabbing, strange, weird
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A Sweet Torture…
So. I just have to tell you this… I’m still all unsteady on my feet, slightly hazy even… I had an awesome experience with Number Seven today. For those who don’t know my “relational dynamics”, a short explanation… My problem/illness … Continue reading
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Tagged awesome, awkward, BDSM, bizarre, blindfold, bondage, crazy, cum, cumtouch, cute, desire, domination, epic, experiment, fuck, hot, insane, insanity, intense, love, lovers, lunatic, mad, madness, mental, mental illness, mental patient, pain, psychiatrist, psychiatry, psychology, psychosis, romance, science, self harm, sex, sexual, strange, submissive, subspace, sweet torture, torture, touch, weird
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I broke… On running and cowardice.
After months, and I really mean months, of not even the tiniest little cut, I broke down and cut my upper left arm all the way from shoulder bone to halfway my elbow. It’s a long story, but to put … Continue reading
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Tagged automutilation, coward, cowardice, cutting, facing your demons, insane, insanity, love, mad, madhouse, madness, mental, mental illness, mental patient, mother, pain, painful, parental trouble, parents, problems, psychiatrist, psychiatry, psychosis, running, sadness, self harm, weak, weakling, weakness
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