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Nurse…

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The Selfishly Submissive Sadist

Sometimes I wonder about my desires. My “kink” so to say. I used to describe it as “Algolagnia”. Love of pain, both giving and taking it. It’s hard defining myself as a submissive or Dominant, or even as a Switch. … Continue reading

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Low Self Esteem And A Severe Case Of Narcissism… A Call For Advice.

I would do anything to gain power and respect. Anything. It’s a craving, a gnawing hunger almost. A narcissistic need to get praise, respect, admiration and attention. It didn’t use to be like that. When I look back on my childhood, … Continue reading

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I Am Not A Fake Person, Pt.2

This is me. Take it or leave it. Just a short list of facts about Quantumphysica. I like most music, from ABBA, Cher and Tracey Ullmann to Lady Gaga, dEUS, Pulse and The Beat, Voltaire, Mad At Gravity, Hooverphonic, Metallica, … Continue reading

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I Am Not A Fake Person, Pt. 1

Yesterday I received one of the worst insults in quite some time, and it came from my psychiatrist, of all people. We were talking, and then she casually asked if I pretended to be different from how I actually am … Continue reading

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Return of the Psychosis… Another Sequel?

I have been feeling awful lately. Before all this started I used to think that when you feel bad you can snap out of it, because the bad feeling is “internal”, it’s you who’s feeling bad, not the world around … Continue reading

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On Polygamy and Experimenting

I was a polygamist for quite some time. My Experiments are numbered for a reason; many of them took place simultaneously. Although I wasn’t really dissatisfied with this approach, these days I am giving monogamy a try, and that has … Continue reading

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Experimentation

So, yesterday I had Experiment Nr 7 over, and we had some great fun… He just knows exactly where to touch… I have ridiculously sensitive nerves. I was blindfolded and naked, and I had no idea what he was doing. … Continue reading

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Why I am as I am…some thoughts

Why am I as I am? Today I spoke to a new psychiatrist. I don’t know what to do with her yet; the different parts of my personality all have their proper opinion on her and that way it’s difficult … Continue reading

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A Letter to a Therapist… Things I would like to tell mine.

Dear Therapist, Lately it has come to my ears that you broke your oath of secrecy, or at least that you stretched it beyond it’s natural flexibility. I am not a moralistic person, and it is not my wish to … Continue reading

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