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Amusement…

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The Selfishly Submissive Sadist

Sometimes I wonder about my desires. My “kink” so to say. I used to describe it as “Algolagnia”. Love of pain, both giving and taking it. It’s hard defining myself as a submissive or Dominant, or even as a Switch. … Continue reading

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To Create A Universe From Nothing… Esthetics Over Ethics?

The mathematical rules of the universe are visible to men in the form of beauty.               (John Michel) Esthetics and Ethics share a lot of letters, but further not too much, I have learned. My … Continue reading

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I Am Not A Fake Person, Pt.2

This is me. Take it or leave it. Just a short list of facts about Quantumphysica. I like most music, from ABBA, Cher and Tracey Ullmann to Lady Gaga, dEUS, Pulse and The Beat, Voltaire, Mad At Gravity, Hooverphonic, Metallica, … Continue reading

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I Am Not A Fake Person, Pt. 1

Yesterday I received one of the worst insults in quite some time, and it came from my psychiatrist, of all people. We were talking, and then she casually asked if I pretended to be different from how I actually am … Continue reading

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Return of the Psychosis… Another Sequel?

I have been feeling awful lately. Before all this started I used to think that when you feel bad you can snap out of it, because the bad feeling is “internal”, it’s you who’s feeling bad, not the world around … Continue reading

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On Polygamy and Experimenting

I was a polygamist for quite some time. My Experiments are numbered for a reason; many of them took place simultaneously. Although I wasn’t really dissatisfied with this approach, these days I am giving monogamy a try, and that has … Continue reading

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I will wake with me a kingdom…

They say blood is ticker than water. Perhaps it is. I wouldn’t know. All I know is that the blood I shed weighs heavier in the scale than the tears they made me cry. Water is transparent, transparent and unnoticed … Continue reading

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When I was little…

  Yeah. Bellatrix Lestrange, I had a serious girl-crush on that woman… She was on of my childhood role models!  

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Of you and me and the ground on which we stood: a poem

My person is the person of others, personified evil for you and the saline taste of life’s water for me. Erasing the words your voice has etched in my skin is not to my desire. Rather I would have your … Continue reading

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