Tag Archives: psychotic

Please Help. Please.

I am very proud of myself for keeping my urge to cut under tight control. I haven’t self-harmed in a long time. However, right now I have the feeling that one of my most-used coping mechanisms is getting out of hand. Severely. … Continue reading

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It’s Not In Our Head… A Painful Facebook Observation

I came across this in my FB feed, and I got so angry that the only way to keep myself from starting one of those hated FB Drama Fests was posting it here. For those who so not understand Dutch, … Continue reading

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Musings On Object And Subject In Murder

Here I am again, talking about one of my favorite subjects: murder! To me, there are two states of mind in which one can commit the act of murder. I’m not talking about emotion or motivation here, merely the state of … Continue reading

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Alea Iacta Est… 3D Printed Dice

I never knew why anyone would need dice other than the classic dotted cube… but then, my experience with dice-games is limited to the kind you play with your family around the salon table. After seeing the beautiful dice of Shapeways designer Ceramicwombat, I … Continue reading

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Small Life Update…

Exam Progress: 4/6 Possible Passed Exams So Far: 2/6 Utter Fails So Far: 2/6 Next Exam: June 23 Paranoia: Way off the fucking charts. (Thank you V.) Hallucinations: Thankfully just noise and not spiders. Exhaustion: Past the point of needing a flat surface … Continue reading

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We Lesser Beings… Thoughts On Physics And Grief

Shit has a funny way of creeping back up on you just when you think you’re done with it…  I thought I had accepted my failures. I thought I had gone crazy, recovered to a certain extent, mourned lost chances, and … Continue reading

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#Cosplay: Hysteria Alice Dress Remake

So, to blog about something that isn’t my deteriorating mental health: cosplay! I didn’t think I was even going to start my Alice: Madness Returns cosplay this year… but as it is, it might even be finished before my Melkor/Morgoth costume! … Continue reading

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My “Best Me”? Or My Worst?

How is that my “best me” seems to come out only when I’m falling apart? I have panic attacks now, daily. The kind that has you hiding in your closet or breathing in a plastic bag. I haven’t slept a … Continue reading

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2 Years Of Experiment No.7

It’s what the title says. For two years already, I’m together with Experiment No.7. I wanted to make note of that. Two. Fucking. Whole. Years. That might not seem like much, but if you know that I used to believe no one would … Continue reading

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Memento Mori Monday: Two-Faced Rosary Beads

It’s monday, so I have a memento mori for you! It’s a bit on the late side, but better late than never, right? For this week, I picked some very old artwork. Rosaries aren’t very common anymore these days, but … Continue reading

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