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The Problem With Monogamy

I’m a sexual person. I love sex, and sexual/physical things in general, and I have very little inherent shame when it comes to my body, my sexuality, and the people around me. I have always considered this a good thing, and … Continue reading

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Sleep…

One day you will put me to sleep, and autumn leaves will be my blanket, my head to rest on earth’s lap. One day you will put me to sleep, and I will close my eyes willingly. My soul will … Continue reading

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There is so much I should not…

There is so much I should not. I can’t help it, I try to concentrate on the mundane, the physical, the down-to-earth and the real, the things everyone tells me are real. But I want to dance again. I miss … Continue reading

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For Your Child In My Hands…

You are the bringer of rain for the dead. The hider of my secrets and the tears I shed. For all is love and love equals hate, I shall not perish ‘till you meet my fate. Desire to anguish and … Continue reading

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Lessons Part VII

It were little things, but slowly, steadily, I felt how I changed. Little things, the way I stood, spoke, dressed and even the way I held a glass. He was never angry with me, but he had a certain authority … Continue reading

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The Half-A-Year-Mark; Looking back on Experiment No. 7

I never intended to treat him any different from my other experiments. When I first met him I assessed him and decided on my strategy to break him just like I had done with all his predecessors. He was nothing … Continue reading

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Lessons Part VI

As if my little question about where he lived had stirred something, we started meeting in other places than just the library. We “went public”, and I saw people I knew watch us, and I knew questions would follow… but … Continue reading

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Lessons Part V

‘Catherine?’ He stood on the patio, as usual neatly dressed in his usual beige suit. I held my breath… God, what was he beautiful. I had to strain myself to keep hiding behind a cherry tree. ‘Catherine… Where are you, … Continue reading

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On Polygamy and Experimenting

I was a polygamist for quite some time. My Experiments are numbered for a reason; many of them took place simultaneously. Although I wasn’t really dissatisfied with this approach, these days I am giving monogamy a try, and that has … Continue reading

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Lessons Part IV

He had called a cab to drive us to the train station. I loaded my small bag proudly into the trunk of the car, and it may have been my imagination but I think he nodded approvingly when he saw … Continue reading

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