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A Schizophrenic’s Future… Thoughts On The “Later” I Might Never Have

So, if you follow this blog, you know I have schizophrenia. Which is, in the end, a disease that kills people. I am very aware of that. But I am also a young woman, attempting to get a diploma, trying … Continue reading

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The Gods Have No Mercy…

“The Gods have no mercy. That’s why they’re Gods.” – Cersei Lannister Am I a horrible, selfish, thankless person for wishing death upon myself? Probably. I wish for car accidents, cancer, building site accidents, lightning strikes, accidental asphyxiation on a piece … Continue reading

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Journey Light, But Bring With You Your Swords!

I haven’t been here in a long time, I know. Life, mild attacks of psychosis, internet-less holidays, exams and many other things have kept me from posting anything even slightly meaningful… And life isn’t looking much brighter. Retake exams are … Continue reading

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The Hole You Left In My Soul

Immature love says, “I love you because I need you”. Mature love says, “I need you because I love you”. – Erich Fromm Is it possible to be immature and mature at the same time? I love you, because I … Continue reading

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Low Self Esteem And A Severe Case Of Narcissism… A Call For Advice.

I would do anything to gain power and respect. Anything. It’s a craving, a gnawing hunger almost. A narcissistic need to get praise, respect, admiration and attention. It didn’t use to be like that. When I look back on my childhood, … Continue reading

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From The Archives Of Madness… QP’s Diary

I have kept a diary for far longer than I kept this blog… I have once uploaded the drawings I made when I was on my worst, when I couldn’t even write in a straight line anymore, but these quotes … Continue reading

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Listen…

I listen to the song that plays inside my head, touch the broken keys instead. This house I called my mind before, was built on sand and now once more. The song that plays it tells of doom, and how … Continue reading

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