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Please Help. Please.

I am very proud of myself for keeping my urge to cut under tight control. I haven’t self-harmed in a long time. However, right now I have the feeling that one of my most-used coping mechanisms is getting out of hand. Severely. … Continue reading

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My “Best Me”? Or My Worst?

How is that my “best me” seems to come out only when I’m falling apart? I have panic attacks now, daily. The kind that has you hiding in your closet or breathing in a plastic bag. I haven’t slept a … Continue reading

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A Woman’s Bag… Kate Kretz’ Vagina Purses

The vagina purses aren’t really functional bags; they are pieces of art, part of the “Psychological Clothing” collection by artist Kate Kretz. Nevertheless, they look pretty awesome… The “Vagina Dentate” and “Fertilization” purse are handmade from velvet, and their imagery … Continue reading

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A Schizophrenic’s Future… Thoughts On The “Later” I Might Never Have

So, if you follow this blog, you know I have schizophrenia. Which is, in the end, a disease that kills people. I am very aware of that. But I am also a young woman, attempting to get a diploma, trying … Continue reading

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They Will Speak…

Is there nothing left to be said, for the tired voice of reason? Haunting tune and fast rewind, she sings a daunting song. Is there nothing left unsaid, by the haggard voice of panic? I know her as I know … Continue reading

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Panic Attacks?

So. I have a new symptom, which I didn’t have before: panic attacks. I don’t know if it are actually panic attacks, but they sure make me panic. Sometimes it just happens, like a giant hand clutching and crushing me, … Continue reading

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The Burden of Glorious Purpose

I have done my exam. The first of five. I went well, the professor was very kind and she said I did very well, and she also said the score on my papers would influence my results positively. I think … Continue reading

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Back And Crying

Yes I am back. I know I said I would not return until after the exams, but I’m a hopeless case and I need a bit of support somehow. Pathetic isn’t it? The exams are prodding at my psychotic nature, … Continue reading

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Confusing Occurrences in QP’s Family Unit

Life has been incredibly confusing to me lately. I have recently reached the point where I ask myself how delusional I am, exactly. The issue? My Family Unit, as this group of people I happen to share both a house … Continue reading

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Fear…

But only so that those afraid will speak the truth…

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