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#LifeUnderThe Doom, Day 11: The Joy Of A Job

I passed the 10 day mark! It’s not very impressive, given how long the academic year is… but it’s something! The Oath is doing its job; I have been to every class so far, and I even managed to be on time … Continue reading

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Sick And Tired

I think this time I am actually, physically sick. But it might also be aggravated stress due to being badly prepared for my retake exams (which start this saturday). In any case, I’m a mess. My eyes are all bloodshot, … Continue reading

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Small Life Update…

Exam Progress: 4/6 Possible Passed Exams So Far: 2/6 Utter Fails So Far: 2/6 Next Exam: June 23 Paranoia: Way off the fucking charts. (Thank you V.) Hallucinations: Thankfully just noise and not spiders. Exhaustion: Past the point of needing a flat surface … Continue reading

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My “Best Me”? Or My Worst?

How is that my “best me” seems to come out only when I’m falling apart? I have panic attacks now, daily. The kind that has you hiding in your closet or breathing in a plastic bag. I haven’t slept a … Continue reading

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Trapped…

I am trapped, a lost soul. The cold is in my veins. There is no answer in the void.

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The Royal Cat Of Research Courage

I am doing research for a paper on some obscure 17th century artist, I have been in the library since 8:30 this morning, and I did not. Have. Lunch. (Which means that I haven’t had food for almost 10 hours. … Continue reading

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Ups And Downs

There are days that it’s okay. Days that I’m okay, that I can concentrate, that I feel alive and present in both mind and body. Days that I don’t curse the universe for letting me open my eyes. It’s those … Continue reading

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Fade…

this is the dance we dance, a whisper on the edge falling and fading to sleep  and my soul is ever throwing  stones into the deep

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I want to sleep.

I am so utterly exhausted. I just want to sleep. I have gone this week with no more than 4 hours of sleep per night, and frequently less. I am so absolutely dead tired that I don’t even. I have … Continue reading

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Splitting Image…

You are the splitting image of me. You are everything I cannot be.

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