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We Lesser Beings… Thoughts On Physics And Grief

Shit has a funny way of creeping back up on you just when you think you’re done with it…  I thought I had accepted my failures. I thought I had gone crazy, recovered to a certain extent, mourned lost chances, and … Continue reading

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Blood, An Almost-Victim, An Aching Need… My Night So Far

I hate my period. Period. Everything’s just worse then. Apparently bleeding from my intimate orifices makes me lust for blood even more than usual, so much more that I might do stupid things. I almost put an ad on a … Continue reading

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Bugs, Bacteria, and Secret Self Harm…

So… back in the days of acute psychosis I used to cut myself with anything sharp enough to penetrate my skin. And when they took all my sharp objects I scratched. And when they cut my nails I bit myself. … Continue reading

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Looking Sharp… Scalpel Blade Earrings

By now we all know how much I like all things sharp and spiky… I’m still saving up money for my first set of surgical steel scalpels to get me started, but in the meantime these wonderful earrings can do … Continue reading

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The amusement value of murder; or why I will lie to my psychiatrist

I have mentioned my “urges” as I call them every now and then, without really explaining what they are to me. That is what I will do now. In a few words: my urges tend towards murder and extreme sadism. … Continue reading

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Musings over a knife

Yesterday at the IKEA I was completely taken aback by the variety of cook’s knives available… I felt aroused. I couldn’t top thinking about what it must be like to let them touch a human body. Teasingly at first, tracing … Continue reading

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I broke… On running and cowardice.

After months, and I really mean months, of not even the tiniest little cut, I broke down and cut my upper left arm all the way from shoulder bone to halfway my elbow. It’s a long story, but to put … Continue reading

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Confusion@TheMadhouse

So… I am here again, writing. My psychotic nature has kept me from that for quite some time, and I am the first to admit that even now I’m rather confused. It feels like my head is full of dust, … Continue reading

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