10 Embarrassing Facts About QP (Now Illustrated!)

1. I consequently mispronounced “Quenya” until I accidentally came across the IPA pronunciation of it. Also, I pronounced C as S in Tolkien names until my boyfriend pointed my error out to me.


2. I haven’t gone to a single class of Baroque Art and Architecture this semester, despite really liking the professor, only because I have trouble getting out of bed before 9 AM.

Ashamed head-in-hands

3. I haven’t even opened my Informatics course, because it’s so full of science references and it makes me cry. Also, informatics was my most hated course even when I was still studying Physics. That syllabus is basically a huge paperback panic attack trigger.


4. I made a wedding board on Pinterest, even though I have no wedding plans whatsoever and I’m usually all “it’s about the marriage that comes after, not about the party”. I just want to have a posh red dress and a huge cake and a reason to send quirky invitations to people and spend a heap of money on party arrangements.


5. I have put more effort in writing my fanfics than in writing my year paper. I have quite possibly also done more research for my fanfics. And I will never know any of my courses even close to as well as I know the Silmarillion family trees.


6. As a kid, I once read the phrase “That’s where the black pages in the history of the Roman Empire begin”, and my first thought was, “How do people read those if they are black?”. (Yes. I was probably a little below on my age curve.)


7. I often don’t shave my legs, arms, etcetera. My boyfriend doesn’t live with me, I live in a rainy climate that requires pants, tights and turtlenecks for the greater part of the year, and if no one’s going to see my bare skin I just don’t do the effort. It’s kinda gross, but my laziness usually wins over my distaste. In the same area of embarrassment: my boyfriend has more hair- and skincare products than I do. He uses them more consequently too, which is why he usually looks fabulous whereas I don’t.


8. At times I am awfully jealous of everyone who is more successful than me. AKA, when my jealousy comes up, I HATE EVERYONE. And then I get really bitter and resentful, and most importantly: mean, to people who don’t deserve it in the least. *shakes head to self* Not proud of it. Not proud at all.


9. I need to pay conscious attention to proper table manners, or else I eat like a mentally handicapped caveman (or like Denethor in LOTR). I’m not below eating with my fingers and cleaning them on my clothes or the tablecloth. (Usually I am extremely polite -because I put a lot of effort in it- but it’s not automatic and after 20 years of trying I have lost hope of it ever becoming automatic. My inner being wants to be a messy eater.)


10. I don’t like my “daily” real life friends. This is probably the most painful thing in this list. I know awesome people, but those I don’t see on a daily basis. The people I know through classes (the ones I sit with, take breaks with, get coffee with) are my daily dose of social interaction, and… I don’t really like them. We have barely anything in common, and I always feel like I’m either playing a role or tagging along without being included. I never feel more alone than when I’m with them.


So, that’s my list. I invite everyone who reads this to share ten (or more, or less) sort-of-shameful facts about themselves, either in the comments or on their own blog; I’m curious to know if I’m alone in my embarrassment yes or no.

About quantumphysica

My name is QuantumPhysica The Insane, but you can call me QP. I am insane, admitted to a mental hospital in Belgium, and waiting for a decent diagnosis at the moment. Once I was a physics student with goals in life and what more; now I'm simply the patient of Room 93. Ever wondered what life is like in the psychiatric ward? I'll tell you everything you ever wanted to know... I am... particularly twitchy of personality. But I also am genuinely interested in everything. There is nothing that doesn't interest me, really. Everything, from quantum computers to fashion and cars to traveling... I also give advice. On anything. No taboos whatsoever. And I make lists of things...
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7 Responses to 10 Embarrassing Facts About QP (Now Illustrated!)

  1. AstroPilot says:

    Here are some of mine:
    1. I’m ambious and lazy, perfect setup for frustration.
    2. I want to achieve a lot and find myself not having enough time.
    3. When I have some time to get something done, I waste it with something else.
    4. Outside I’m a serious, respectable person and have to be a good example (instructing), inside I’m kinky and absolutely not PC, irresponsible at times.
    5. I can logically proof that my life, in fact the existence of every thing has no purpose, but I am so inconsequent to continue to live because a) I’m too much a coward to kill myself and b) even worse I enjoy continuing to live.
    6. During my school vacation I was sent into a british family to improve my english. I learned a lot of words by watching TV, not having time to look them up in the dictionary, simply extracting the supposed meaning from the context. One of those words was ridiculous, which I picked up as “unnecessary”, although I should have known better from latin. When I was ready to leave after that language training my vacation parents gave me a little present for my parents at home. I wanted to be polite and tell them that this was not necessary. So I said: “Thank you, but this is ridiculous.” ……
    How many unconfirmed wrong assumptions do I have in my head?
    7. I underuse my intelligence, and a great fraction of it seems to have vanished already.
    8. I wanted to win a Nobel price, but did not get into serious research, because I preferred easy, well paid jobs.
    10. I’m cheating.

  2. AstroPilot says:

    I love your blog, it is so full of inspiring interesting unusual things, and so well written and illustrated. Every new entry saves my day!

  3. AstroPilot says:

    Please allow me a few remarks to your facts:
    1. I don’t see that as embarassing, especially relative to my no 6.
    2. That could be me!
    3. I hope there will come a time when you can enjoy science again without hurting yourself.
    5. One is best at things one is most motivated for.
    6. The point of view of a child can be most refreshing, not embarassing at all. I had similar insights.
    8. I get jealous too of sucessful people, and I think that nowadays networking seems to be more important than qualification.
    9. I tend to speak with a mouth full of food, that’s embarassing too, isn’t it?
    10. Same with me, I don’t have friends in my vicinity, people are too much on the surface, occupied by their day to day business, not my level. And the few real friends? I neglected the relationships, I only have few acquaintances. Guess that is the price to pay for being not at the normal level. Don’t see your facts as embarassing, it’s all relative.

  4. klaas says:

    Don’t be too hard on yourself. Everyone has a list like that. If I have problems with my life – which happens more than often – I try to visualize this image:
    It’s a really important chart for me.
    3: Try to cope with your math and physics. You can like them, but in another way than before.
    And about 10: take more time on the friends you really like, and try to cope with the other ones. Our world is too big to really like everyone you know.

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