The Bitch Is Back! (Celebrating The End Of Blogging Hiatus)

I haven’t been here in a while, and I apologize for that. I would like to say that real life caught up with me (for that implies I was actually doing something with my life), but in truth it was the Tolkien fandom that had me in its clutches. Well, Tolkien fandom and some minor life issues, like exams. Now I’m back however, and here to stay! In all the turmoil of the real world, I missed the safe haven of my blog…

So, what have I been doing?

1. Exams, for one. They went surprisingly well! I passed 3/5, which is better than my success rate last year, and my grades were better as well, on average. I even managed to get an 18/20 for a course that was honestly difficult… The only problem there was that everything I passed was oral, and everything I failed was written. I’ve always been more of an orator than a writer, but I do find that alarming…
2. Cosplay! I don’t remember if I mentioned it here before (as I said, it’s been a while), but I’m currently working on a Silmarillion cosplay for me and my boyfriend. There will be a post about that with pictures, later…
3. Crafts… Apart from cosplay, I have also been crafty in general, mostly in the jewelry department. And guess what? I will be writing a post about that too! (One of the perks of a hiatus is that you have lots to write about when you come back…)
4. Planning things. Yes, it’s true. I, the most chaotic, unstructured person ever, has taken up planning and ordering her life. After reading up on coping strategies for people with schizophrenia, and testing it for a while, I think I might be on to something. Less chaos = less breakdowns, for some reason. And as such, I am now making lists, keeping track of my debts and expenses, regularly cleaning my place, using a calendar… who’d  have thought, right?
5. Writing fanfiction… One of my biggest vices. I have been reading and writing lots of LOTR/Silm fanfic, and that has sort of taken me away from writing on here. That I find myself faced with a writer’s block at the moment plays no small part in my return…
6. Being a social creature. I am not a social creature by nature. I am a huge attention-whore, but I am also lazy as fuck and easily annoyed by people, so actually going out and being among them is quite the effort for me. Not to mention all the planning that goes into meeting with friends, or going out! (Transport? Money? Time and place? What to wear? You get the picture.) Lately however I found myself woefully lonely, and it was entirely my own fault. I was all alone on my birthday, imagine that! So my NY resolution was to be more social and to actively seek people out. Downside of this is less time behind my computer, of course…

I won’t say that it’s always been easy (I recall many late-night panic calls to the boyfriend, getting lost in town after following someone who turned out to be a hallucination, a severely bruised hand from punching the wall… and that’s not even mentioning the things I don’t recall, but which were undoubtedly more unhinged. But on overall, I’ve been doing better than before. Make fun of it if you like, but the Tolkien fandom really helps to keep me grounded. Also, I’m taking up new interests (like Salsa dancing) and I’m trying to put more effort in my studies… I’d say I’m making progress!

I hope I still have some followers… If I do, thank you for sticking with me, you’re awesome! And if I don’t… well, then I’ll have to win them back, no? QP out!