Help Me Escape Myself

I will never be able to escape. Wherever I go, I carry it with me, weakness when I look in the mirror, lack of character in everything I do. Oh it’s all so easy, easy-peasy, isn’t it? Always picking the easy way, pathetic, pathological Love Of Ease. Weak, weak, weak. I will never be able to escape.

I want to run away, grab a few things and take a train to god knows where, just leave everything behind and start over somewhere else. I want to erase everyone from my life, everyone who knows my weakness. Scratch myself out of their existence so they can never remind me of it. Weak, weak, weak. So disgusting. I can never erase myself, my mirror image will always be there to remind me of the truth.

I lie, all the time, because it’s all I’m fucking good for. It’s all I’m good at. Weak, weak, weak. Disgusting me to the very centre of myself. I want to escape myself, I want to escape the lack of character. I hate it. I HATE IT. I’m so absolutely disgusting, weak, weak, weak. 

About quantumphysica

My name is QuantumPhysica The Insane, but you can call me QP. I am insane, admitted to a mental hospital in Belgium, and waiting for a decent diagnosis at the moment. Once I was a physics student with goals in life and what more; now I'm simply the patient of Room 93. Ever wondered what life is like in the psychiatric ward? I'll tell you everything you ever wanted to know... I am... particularly twitchy of personality. But I also am genuinely interested in everything. There is nothing that doesn't interest me, really. Everything, from quantum computers to fashion and cars to traveling... I also give advice. On anything. No taboos whatsoever. And I make lists of things...
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2 Responses to Help Me Escape Myself

  1. We should run away together :p

  2. chris9911 says:

    I don’t think thats being weak. If your surrounding is giving you grief and stress, why not start up a new life, or plan for it. Seems very logical to me. So are you thinking of starting a family, picket fence, kids, pets, etc?

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