Monologue: a gift from Nr 7

This poem was a gift to me from Experiment Nr 7. I am thoroughly grateful for his efforts and determination to be a good subject to me, especially since I’m not an easy experimenter to work with. I sincerely hope he finds the research as instructive as I do.   

The pain in my heart
Is nothing
Compared to
What I’ll feel
If I hurt you

For bringing misery
To others is my greatest fear

Yet if you deem me worth the risk
How can I not try?
My pain is mine alone
But the pain of those around me
Leaves a burden on my heart
Why can I not help them?
How can I think of myself
When others are that much worse?

Yet you alone have touched my heart
Released the pain inside
It may seem strange but
I feel grateful for this pain
For through it I feel a joy worth anything

But fear still haunts me
More for you than for myself
a Fear as strong as my desire
To have you beside me
The desire to have
You smile however
Is stronger than both

So for now I’ll try my
To be yours
For as long as you
Want me
Untill we meet
I’ll hold onto your memory

About quantumphysica

My name is QuantumPhysica The Insane, but you can call me QP. I am insane, admitted to a mental hospital in Belgium, and waiting for a decent diagnosis at the moment. Once I was a physics student with goals in life and what more; now I'm simply the patient of Room 93. Ever wondered what life is like in the psychiatric ward? I'll tell you everything you ever wanted to know... I am... particularly twitchy of personality. But I also am genuinely interested in everything. There is nothing that doesn't interest me, really. Everything, from quantum computers to fashion and cars to traveling... I also give advice. On anything. No taboos whatsoever. And I make lists of things...
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2 Responses to Monologue: a gift from Nr 7

  1. Konstantina says:

    beautiful, tender poem.

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