So maybe you noticed, but this blog hasn’t been updated in three weeks. I was gone to France, to the internet-less wasteland of the Provence… Okay, actually it was really beautiful there, but every place with no internet counts as wasteland to me…
Alas, I am back now, and fully operational! My trip to France was interesting, although highly frustrating as well. I stayed in a little cottage in a cherry orchard, a place that means a lot to me. It was very difficult for me to be there, because of all the memories. I had several psychotic panic attacks and dissociative events, but somehow I managed to survive anyway.
Being there made me realize a few things about myself, things that still scare a part of me but less and less each time I think about them. I no longer ask myself if it is normal to have to sort of needs I feel; I know by now it is not. But part of the heap of shards I call “Me” is still wary of the consequences. I am not seeing myself as an upper being, I don’t think I am above the law. I just have a need, and I think that with the correct precautions I should be able to get away with it. Being there, in the last place I have been absolutely happy before my illness kicked in, has made me realize the full strength of this need, and I wonder if I should tell my psychoanalyst.
Anyway, there has been another photoshoot with the Riemann Hypothesis (for a delusion/alter ego/identity disturbance she is pretty photogenic) and soon you will get to see what the Orchard looks like…
Love and chaos, QP
I missed you. Provence for 3 weeks? Drool….
Glad to hear you’ve been safe and staying somewhere lovely. Welcome back 🙂
Xoxo
Fatal
I am glad you are back you were missed, cannot wait to see the photos. Next time drop us a line before hand or maybe I missed it
I kept meaning to comment and see if you were ok but then I’d fall asleep! I’ve been working full time which leaves me with barely anytime!
I’M SO HAPPY YOU’RE BACK!!!!!! xoxoxo
I really missed quantumphysica
Thanks! I’m glad to know I was missed 😀
Very much!!!
Welcome back!
thanks 🙂