QP is Back in Business!

So maybe you noticed, but this blog hasn’t been updated in three weeks. I was gone to France, to the internet-less wasteland of the Provence… Okay, actually it was really beautiful there, but every place with no internet counts as wasteland to me…

Alas, I am back now, and fully operational! My trip to France was interesting, although highly frustrating as well. I stayed in a little cottage in a cherry orchard, a place that means a lot to me. It was very difficult for me to be there, because of all the memories. I had several psychotic panic attacks and dissociative events, but somehow I managed to survive anyway.

Being there made me realize a few things about myself, things that still scare a part of me but less and less each time I think about them. I no longer ask myself if it is normal to have to sort of needs I feel; I know by now it is not. But part of the heap of shards I call “Me” is still wary of the consequences. I am not seeing myself as an upper being, I don’t think I am above the law. I just have a need, and I think that with the correct precautions I should be able to get away with it. Being there, in the last place I have been absolutely happy before my illness kicked in, has made me realize the full strength of this need, and I wonder if I should tell my psychoanalyst.

Anyway, there has been another photoshoot with the Riemann Hypothesis (for a delusion/alter ego/identity disturbance she is pretty photogenic) and soon you will get to see what the Orchard looks like…

Love and chaos, QP

About quantumphysica

My name is QuantumPhysica The Insane, but you can call me QP. I am insane, admitted to a mental hospital in Belgium, and waiting for a decent diagnosis at the moment. Once I was a physics student with goals in life and what more; now I'm simply the patient of Room 93. Ever wondered what life is like in the psychiatric ward? I'll tell you everything you ever wanted to know... I am... particularly twitchy of personality. But I also am genuinely interested in everything. There is nothing that doesn't interest me, really. Everything, from quantum computers to fashion and cars to traveling... I also give advice. On anything. No taboos whatsoever. And I make lists of things...
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9 Responses to QP is Back in Business!

  1. I missed you. Provence for 3 weeks? Drool….

  2. Fatal says:

    Glad to hear you’ve been safe and staying somewhere lovely. Welcome back 🙂

    Xoxo
    Fatal

  3. I am glad you are back you were missed, cannot wait to see the photos. Next time drop us a line before hand or maybe I missed it

  4. I kept meaning to comment and see if you were ok but then I’d fall asleep! I’ve been working full time which leaves me with barely anytime!

    I’M SO HAPPY YOU’RE BACK!!!!!! xoxoxo

  5. deviantdiaries says:

    Welcome back!

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