So. I just have to tell you this… I’m still all unsteady on my feet, slightly hazy even… I had an awesome experience with Number Seven today. For those who don’t know my “relational dynamics”, a short explanation… My problem/illness isn’t the easiest thing to deal with when in a relationship, but in Experiment Number Seven I have found a delightful companion on that account. Explaining how our relationship functions would take too much place; just take from me that being a fellow schizoid and dear friend, he works his way very well with my needs, and I with his.
Today… Today I had one of those days. I still felt bad for cutting, losing control like that, and when he came to visit me he immediately saw that. After a bit of introduction stuff we got to the point where he put me on the bed, blindfolded me, tied me and… touched me. I’m not being euphemistically here or anything. He just touched me, one finger slowly sliding over my skin. You should know, I am very sensitive, especially on the inside of my thighs, my ass, and other usually-covered-by-fabric places. With one finger he went over my most sensitive spots, caressing them, teasingly coming closer to my dripping wet cunt but not touching it… I swear, I have never felt something like that before. I couldn’t see where he was going, what he was doing, but it felt as if my nerves were on fire. I couldn’t think, my head just went blank and I felt so fucking high… If he had touched my cunt I think I would have had one screaming orgasm… But he just went round and round it, I felt how my clit was totally swollen and if I had had the slightest bit of lucidity I would have begged him to make me cum… but I was like paralyzed, completely surrendered to him simply by him touching me… It was the worst and the best feeling ever. On a certain point I remember I went all limp and then there was simply… bliss.
When I “came back” he was really sweet… he helped me up, put me my dress on, combed my hair… I was too shaky to do those things myself… Even now, several hours later, I’m still off… I can still feel my skin tingle and my whole body seems to be trembling with excitement… I have no clue what happened to me, but it was awesome…