Me@TheMadhouse: Tests, Amnesia and a Stalker

Hi there my dear followers, it is time for the review of my day at the madhouse! Multiple days actually, because it has been quite some time since the last time I did a review. A lot has happened. To begin with the good news: my tests have finally started, so in three weeks I should hear the doctor’s final judgement on my mental state. Testing is one tough cookie though… Starting at 9 am, ending at 6 pm, only one hour lunch break. It’s a battle of exhaustion, slaying with my pen through hoards of stupid questions. Because I love sharing a joke, I will give you the literal (I mention it so you won’t think I’m fooling you) text of some of the questions, to be answered with AGREE or DISAGREE. Be amazed…

  • You are being possessed by evil spirits on a regular basis.
  • Actually, you are just way more important than most other people.
  • In the past, people have multiple times tried to stab you in the back. (metaphorical)
  • You feel strongly attracted to other people’s personal possessions.

To speak about euphemisms. And understatements. And just plain silly questions. I have filled in more than 1000 of these, and I’m only in my third day of testing. 3 more weeks of this to go!

Then, something bizarre happened to me yesterday. I have a gap of four hours in my memory. I remember only walking to the kitchen to get my plate at 12:00, feeling very derealized, and then there’s nothing, until I wake up in my bed at 16:00. I have had derealization before, but never with such loss of memory. Also, I wasn’t unconscious or anything during that time, although very absent-minded, and falling sleep all the time. (At least, that’s what I heard later on.) Anyone having had similar experiences?

Then, I also have a stalker. A STALKER. Yes, my dear followers, in my slightly split personality my cute side has been too flirty, my cynical side too funny, my sadist side too sexy… And the result is that I have a stalker. I considered him an interesting experiment of mine, but now he’s annoying the hell outta me… Good Advice From The Psychotic Mind: when in a madhouse, NEVER EVER, start an affectionate relationship -no matter what kind- with a fellow patient. I am a fucking nutcase and even that doesn’t chase this type away…

Anyway, so far things have been going in the Madhouse! I wish you all the best, have fun, do naughty things, eat cupcakes, and above all… celebrate insanity!

Love, QP

About quantumphysica

My name is QuantumPhysica The Insane, but you can call me QP. I am insane, admitted to a mental hospital in Belgium, and waiting for a decent diagnosis at the moment. Once I was a physics student with goals in life and what more; now I'm simply the patient of Room 93. Ever wondered what life is like in the psychiatric ward? I'll tell you everything you ever wanted to know... I am... particularly twitchy of personality. But I also am genuinely interested in everything. There is nothing that doesn't interest me, really. Everything, from quantum computers to fashion and cars to traveling... I also give advice. On anything. No taboos whatsoever. And I make lists of things...
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14 Responses to Me@TheMadhouse: Tests, Amnesia and a Stalker

  1. lookingforapurpose says:

    Will do sexy! lol 😉

    I hope the tests go well for you when the results come in. And be wary of stalkers…. how affectionate are we talking you got with this person?

    • Well… a bit too affectionate, actually. Me is stupid, psychotic and possibly schizoid, so I didn’t quite realize he was obsessed with me until he had kind of touched everything. *sigh*

  2. I had a stalker once. They can get creepy if it’s not welcomed by you. Of note: I personally believe we are not the crazy ones. It’s the “normal” people who are. Here in the US, people don’t value something as simple as a tree or clean water to drink. They value possessions. They litter and use, use,use. It’s deplorable!
    Once you get out of there, I hope you experience the spiritual awakening within yourself. You will notice that, yes, you are different from “the others”, but it’s because you know MORE 😀

    • I do agree with your statement about normality. Personally I think there is no such thing as normality; there just is the normal probability distribution… *sigh* But don’t get me started on mathematics…

      Concerning “spiritual awakening”… Sometimes I feel like I’ve been taking the red pill, you know…

  3. clownonfire says:

    The mad house… My wife used to call “day hospital” the “crazy hospital”….
    I think I’m missing out on all the fun­.

  4. digs344 says:

    funny blog ya got going here:)
    Im a little crazy myself.

  5. anthonytadic says:

    So I’m kinda curious, what did they end up diagnosing you with?? 🙂

    • Nothing yet, they’re STILL testing me. Today I did the good old Rorschach Ink Blot Test *giggle*
      I heard rumors they’re thinking about things like Bipolar Syndrome, Multiple Personality Disorder and Severe Personality Disfunction. No idea what of that is true and what is not. I try not to do any self-tests online…

      • anthonytadic says:

        I wish you all the best of luck! I was diagnosed with scitzoaffective disorder 8 years ago and its been one hell of a bumpy ride. I like your writing keep it up!

      • thanks *hug*
        I really have no idea what they’ll call this…
        I’m happy you like my blog! 😉

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